Thursday, June 10, 2010
Today is 5 years since I lost my daddy. The picture above is my dad holding my son.
Thank you to my beautiful friend Phyllis for remembering and sending her well wishes for my mom and me. She knows my pain well, having lost her own dad more recently.
Another close friend of mine lost her father last week.
It breaks my heart to see others go through that loss. The only thing I can tell them is that I don't think the pain ever goes away, but I know that it does get easier with time.... and the memories won't ever leave either.
There are STILL times when I can feel his presence, when I hear something he used to say, see something in his favorite color, or sometimes I can smell him... I could be driving or just sitting at home and all of a sudden, I'll just smell him... THAT'S when I feel him most.... and I close my eyes and talk to him, just tell him how much I miss him and what's been going on in our lives (as if he didn't know). It's just a comfort for me.
He used to like to feed the pigeons, and they would sit on the wire across the street from his house and wait for him to come out in the morning with bird seed and bread. Whenever I see a bird on a wire sitting outside my window, I think of my dad.
There will always be things to remind me of him, so he'll never be far away.... Thank God!!
I miss you so much, Daddy, I love you!!!